I WANTED SO MUCH TO ASK... HOW ARE YOU!!!
How can you possibility start a letter asking that someone how you are doing when you know that someone is absolutely getting nowhere to being fine!
Wanting to know how is that person doing but at the same time felt it is not appropriate to put it in words.
A need to bring a smile across that person face yet you cant write anywhere near to achieving it.
I never felt so useless before... Wanted so much to go back to be by that person side yet i am still sitting here in front of the computer without having the courage to proceed along with my heartfelt thinking.
Each day i am dragging my feet to work, reacting to every phone call or sms... similar to being a Zombie or a body without Soul?
Heartless shell!!! Fucking chee bye, why am i still here... what is holding me back... when had i become so lost...
Simply finding excuses for myself on why i am still here! I am such a coward!
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