It has been a week and my mind had never stop thinking about them...
Time crawls when you least wanted it... and age flies without you knowing it. Isnt it Complicated ?!?!?! How many 5 years will i be left with???
I had always hate weekends but for the whole of this week, i had been looking forward to it. I want to be by myself, i want to hide in this studio apartment, i want to be alone, i need some silent moments.
Office is always full of people, so it hard to get some quiet moments. I had drew some attention due to being so quiet these days. What can i say other than insisting that i am fine? I had come to hate people asking: Ivy, are you ok? You make me more worried by saying that you are fine.
I cant stand cold and it hurts me to know that warmth is not given to that someone i held so dear.
I cant stand hunger and it pains me to know that proper meal was not serve to that someone i held so dear.
I heard those tears had stop flowing... I know how it felt to cry yourself to sleep each night and that explains why it has stop flowing. I know how it feels to cry silently at night without wanting others to hear you.
I am looking forward to hear your voice next week... Can you feel how much i missed you?
If i am in agony, you must be sufferring ten or twenty times more than me.
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Goden's wife & eldest son reached Rio around evening today. He knock off early today and took a cab to the airport to wait for their arrival. Before he left for the airport, CK broke the news to him and they had a small chat.
His wife brought me a strip of cigarettes... seeing them so happy together makes me feel so happy for them.
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Reunion - I craves so much for it!
I am tired, very very tired, never been so tired mentally. I will rest early tonight after my favorite Kilkenny and booster sticks... I notice i had been smoking alot during this week but let me be... *Yawn*
Oh! Its olympics at Beijing today! Singapore National day will be tomorrow... Happy 43th birthday!
43 - Its the same age as...
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